• Tanis Nikana@lemmy.world
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    You know, I’ve spent a long time bemoaning my asexuality and sex-repulsedness, what I’d be missing out on that I can’t bring myself to do.

    Then I realized that this experience is completely out of the cards for me, and cannot happen.

    I think I’m at peace with myself and the world now.

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      I will say that this is not a typical expression of sexuality. I have never once thought that I needed to put a cock ring on, let alone one made of motherfucking titanium.

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      Here’s another one that might help you out:

      Warning ⚠️ ⚠️⚠️: fucking disturbing, full dead dove situation here.

      Back in the wild west days of the internets, a friend of mine discovered a forum for sounding. He decided he wanted to try it, and read some of the threads on the forum. What he neglected to do was to read any of the threads about beginners and safety. He just read a few things about what people were into, and then hopped directly online and ordered some stuff. remember, wild west of the internet era here. So, fast forward a while and he gets the packages delivered. He goes to his bedroom and he tries it out.

      He decided to start with a very small/thin rod, as he assumed that was best. What he got was a hard metal rod with no rounded tip and a little control box for electrical stimulation. He does what he does, and then turns on the electrics. At first, he’s enjoying it. Then he cranks that bitch up to 11, because he’s a teenaged idiot. He immediately spasms, jerking forward, and the sounding rod pokes/pierces him inside. He says it pierces his prostate, but when I googled it it seems more likely it was his urethral wall. Either way. He is now punctured, being zapped on his insides, naked, with an erection, and has fallen onto his bedroom floor. He is obviously making quite a bit of noise.

      His mother bursts in the room in a panic, and sees her son laying on the floor, with an erection, and wires coming out of his dick, in obvious pain. This is the part of the story I should probably mention that his mom is one of those Uber Christian black church ladies. You know the easter hat church ladies? That’s a normal Sunday for her. Every week, twice a week, she is at church in her finest finery.

      But, in the moment, she’s in mom mode, and only wants to help her baby. So she grabs hold of the wires that are attacking her child’s innards, and forcibly yoinks them out of her son.

      At which point he ejaculates. In front of his mother. And then drives him to the hospital.

      I only found out about this story 10 years or so after it happened, many, many after we had moved away from each other. I’ve had dinner with his mom. I’ve slept over at their house, and he at mine. I cannot imagine the all out lecture he got once she found out he wasn’t going to die. OMG

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          I swear to God this wasn’t me. I’m not shy about sharing my fucked up sex stories. Lol. I’ll gladly regale you with the time I first bottomed, or when I nearly went to ER because of those damn metal balls lol

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        Self, he explicitly warned you. And you took his advice for like five minutes and didn’t read it.

        Goddammit, Tanis.

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            I heeded it for three hundred–count’em–three hundred seconds, thank you very much.

            Then I just had to make sure the dick tazer tasted like pain, I guess.

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              I mean, honestly? Good job. Lol. I never heed the warnings at all. I regret it sometimes, most of the time I can just brush it off. The only one to ever truly hurt me, though, was that damn my little pony thing on reddit, and a similar one with a shoe box

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          I’ve genuinely never tried it. I’ve heard good things, but even before my buddy told me that story I worried about, like, infection. Is it good enough to do the research to do it safely? Lol

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            I’ve been sounding for 20 years, and uhh, to put it lightly I have been very lazy about general cleanliness and whatnot. Never had a single UTI. Its pretty hard to get a UTI as a guy.

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        In the context of the internet wild west days, this is very tame.

        Miss those days before the normies took over.

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      If you’re looking for more justification, then you’ve got online access to unlimited information about unusual sexual practices, injuries and experiences gone wrong. Depends on how deep you want to dive into this…but there’s a lot out there if you need more material to make yourself feel better.

      Also, I didn’t know asexuals bemoaned their asexuality. Sucks to have a sexual preference that doesnt align with what you want to be.

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        I mean, I’m sitting here, not really having sex, when about 30% of all popular music is about the horizontal monster mash. So many television plots are born of “I need to have sex with this person badly but it will destroy my marriage.” The sheer amount of porn on the internet, and how it’s the number one consumed genre of entertainment and it’s not even close.

        All this taken together, it’s enough to bemoan the fact that I’m disgusted even by the thought of it, and millions of other people have made art about it for billions to consume. What the hell am I missing, that it’s this popular?

        This is, at some point, something most sex-repulsed people have to work through.

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          I had two phases in my life so far. When I was a teenager and later in relationship I was pretty sexually active. After ending this relationship I needed a lot of time to come to terms with everything and I didn’t want any relationships whatsoever so I just stopped having sex. After a few months I just kinda forgot about it? At this point I didn’t have sex for like 6 years, I very rarely get horny and I do NOT want to go back. Yes, sex is fun, but man, being horny can be so fucking tiring. It can occupy your mind for hours, making it hard to focus on work, studying or anything else. It’s kinda like a drug to be honest.

          Asexuality doesn’t sound bad at all to me. Well, I guess it doesn’t make relationships easier so it’s obviously a tradeoff…

          • Asexuality doesn’t mean not being horny unfortunately. Just that its more annoying to deal with it. Even in my mid-20s or so, I’d still get horny regularly doing things like reading math textbooks and wouldn’t be able to focus. Ironically, I remember a month that I wasn’t horny at all was because I was infatuated with a girl, but had zero sexual attraction towards her. Since I was thinking about her all day, it killed my libido.

            Starting spiro at ~30yo was great, finally getting rid of a curse. Not that I don’t get turned on sometimes still, but its rarer. Also I’ve always had kinky fantasies and that hasn’t changed.

            Being (aro)ace just meant growing up wondering if people were lying about experiencing sexual attraction and being confused by things like dating (that could have been solved if I just knew aroace was a thing at a younger age and that aces could still be horny).

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              Thanks for this info, I had no idea. To be frank I can’t really wrap my head around the fact that you can be sexually aroused without actually wanting sex.

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            I mean, I’m married to an asexual homoromantic woman and being lesbians and such is fantastic, but yeah, it’s purely romantic and platonic. I do love her very much.

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              Nice! In this case I wouldn’t give sex a second thought. Don’t let the society pressure you into seeing it as so important! Wish you all the best!

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            A lot of that is just age too. From my experience, once you get past your mid 20s the constant hornyness dies down. I’m in my late 30s and I still love sex, but it’s not a need in any capacity.

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              That’s what I would expect. Although I’m comparing myself to my similarly aged friends, and let me tell you, their chase of sex is not slowing down.

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          I can understand the aversion, especially when it is so ever present in our society.

          The thing is, why shouldn’t it be? Sex is completely normal, natural, and frankly incredibly important to us as a species. It’s only slightly less important than eating and breathing. Not necessarily on an individual level, but as a collective. Sex is the reason every single one of us exists today.

          Unfortunately many religions like to use it for control, they connect it to shame, evil, weakness, corruption. They work very hard to make something that is inherently beautiful into something their followers fear and hide from, leading them to engage in deeper cultural taboos. After all, if watching porn is already a sin, and all sins are equal, then there’s no difference in looking at the Venus de Milo or watching graphic rape. This criminalization of normal sexuality is incredibly depressing to me.

          Anyway, at this point I’m just rambling about my own issues. I do hope that you come to find peace with it, even if it never appeals to you personally.