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Corn husks are getting harder to find now at least where I went. Been watching more Hasan and he mentioned prob in a month the stores are gonna be empty, that and with how embolden ICE has been getting lead me to believe violence is just gonna be going up against minorities so I’m worried.
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liberals wanna be the pmc over minorities while Republicans wanna expel and jail the compromise they get is jailing minorities and contracting slave labor, I really hate this country
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Just got back from a date and it confirmed for me that I cannot date. Certainly not now, maybe not ever again. I’m absolutely emotionally unavailable. I just want to be back with my ex. It’s too bad, this person was cute and really into me, we agreed to a 2nd date already because I hadn’t processed some of the feelings yet but it all came up on my way home. Going to have to figure out how to let them down kindly, promptly.
I guess almost half a year isn’t enough time to get over such a long term relationship with a longer term friend. I want to just give up on everything.
Doomery [Fears About Familial Transphobia Too]
On top of all of this job hunting bullshit, I feel like my post for rent fundraising is going at a slower pace than usual… sucks. To be fair, I did have to get two overdrafts covered, and if it weren’t for that, I’d probably be around $100 in. Usually, a few HBs come in with some really hard clutch towards the end of the month, but I always get this nagging fear where I say, “What if this is the month where I won’t be saved?” It’s a horrifying outcome to sit on and think about, no matter how familiar I get with that scary feeling, and it happens every month. It’s obviously the primary reason why I really just want to fucking get a job already so that I don’t have to live with this fear.
I also hate how it makes it so much harder to cope and just vibe. The things I usually enjoy like listening to music, composing, watching video essays, talking to buds, and whatever, they just don’t seem like I’m “allowed” to enjoy them at a certain point. I start victim blaming myself, saying, “Am I really doing everything I can in my power to get a job?”
I have resorted to things I definitely did not want to do. I hate working with animal products, yet I still applied for places like KFC and McDonalds. I have seen about shitty part-time gigs and even temporary ones to see if I can have the slightest bit of grace and some income. I have asked DeepSeek to give me “outside the box” recommendations. I really have thought about so much. I look on Google maps to see what businesses are available and if I can email them directly. On top of all of this, I have to ensure that, especially in my shitty state, they’re not going to be put off by me being androgynous and having freeform dreadlocks.
I genuinely feel clueless, and I get a headache when I think too long on the question of what could be different.
These worries about making rent, job hunting being ridiculously frustrating to a point near damn complete hopelessness, and the uncertainty of just about everything continues to be depressing. Hopefully, my birth month ends up being at least somewhat joyful. To make matters worse, I have to worry about my “family” violating boundaries and trying to reach me during the day,
I do have some job interviews coming up, but I feel like the job hunt situation puts me in a catch 22 with interviews. I need to be in a good mood, determined, and motivated to do good in a job interview, but I need to actually have hope that a place will hire me to be in a good mood, determined, and motivated in a job interview. And I’ve exhausted so much effort, energy, and preparation in job interviews only to get the highest level of disrespect imaginable in return that my mind still struggles to remain in that psychological spot of, “It’s still worth it to try your best.”
I gotta complain about this one somewhere, so a few weeks ago I applied for some medical receptionist position, got an interview, got turned down no surprise. Last week one of the interviewers sees me at my IRL retail job and per usual I’m like the only one able to ring up customers on a skeletal crew night and there’s a huge ass line of angry people, when she comes up she starts going off about how I’m in a bad position and she feels sorry for me. I’m thinking all sorts of rude things but say nothing and pretend to be too focused, such sorts are looking for a reaction. Probably the first customer in a while that realized I actually have an education rather than the usual ‘tee hee illegal tamagotchi never read a book, no habla ingles’ horseshit bigots I deal with day in and out. Still a bigot most likely, HR sorts are until proven otherwise. Yesterday I had a bunch of
having the time of their lives giggling as 60-some year old boomboom children pretending they didn’t understand me. Come on now, a San Jose accent isn’t incomprehensible to a midwesterner.
I’m sorry comrade. These people are pathetic and I wish them nothing but misery.
Are there more poc-friendly horror spaces anywhere? I’ve mentioned before how the gore community makes racial issues here look like Club Penguin, but it’s getting to be too much.
Constant uses of the f-slur and n-slur with the hard R being placed in various images because funny. Then there’s the edits featuring the most dated anti-black stereotypes imaginable.
I love horror and exploring the genre but so many edgelords make the fandom hard to be a part of.
Constant uses of the f-slur and n-slur with the hard R being placed in various images because funny. Then there’s the edits featuring the most dated anti-black stereotypes imaginable.
I love horror and exploring the genre but so many edgelords make the fandom hard to be a part of.
JFC, you just casually experience that?
Yes. This particular fandom is very niche and has its roots in 4chan from the 2010’s so I guess I pretty much knew what to expect. What kept me in was the niche topic itself and that there are genuinely good people who are pushing back against the bigotry. But every now and then the slurs rear their ugly head.
Edit: But the larger horror community has this problem too. Too many anti-SJW rants and prominent creators like David Firth of Salad Fingers whining about how migrants are ruining the UK.
A lot of horror stuff tickles the same as anti-immigrant panic, “humanoid figure with unusual proportions and skin tone kidnapping little girls” isn’t some racist stereotype about immigrants but Slenderman, there’s also a history of racism in it, like how Voodoo is depicted and the origins of Zombies.
Exactly this. Lovecraft being as prominent as he is doesn’t help. His stuff is great but it’s hard to ignore the xenophobic and racist undertones. Guillermo Del Toro is probably the best horror creative in the Spanish speaking world and I hope we continue to see more like him.
I personally enjoy topics of horror that involve the unknown or exaggerated forms of the supernatural. It’s getting better but there’s still a long way to go.
xenophobic and racist undertones.
Lovecraft called me slurs I didn’t even know existed. I’ve never had someone disparage my mom with such impressive and precise vocabulary.
I still can’t get over him going into an existential crisis, losing his shit, and then writing all his family members because he found out his great aunt or whatever the fuck was Welsh. Lovecraft had some big-brained 600 IQ views on race I will never understand.
Lovecraft had some big-brained 600 IQ views on race I will never understand.
And I semi-ironically love him for that. I love reading Lovecraft not because his stories are scary — they aren’t — but because it’s hilarious to read them knowing they come from the perspective of a white guy who is grappling with anxiety that the White Race may not in fact be the masters of all creation. Reading them from that perspective makes a lot of it funny. Like oh, what’s so horrible is that he realized he’s not at the top of the world. Normal people already know that.
I read long ago that hamsters may eat their babies to reduce the scent that could attract predators or to focus their energy on their own survival. I feel this sums up the relationship Democrats or libs in general around the world have with POC. Why not have a little genocide in gaza to delay the inevitable.
I hate seeing news articles about trumps racism and racist policies. We all know he’s racist, why do we keep clutching our pearls everytime he does something he’s known for. Also this country was always racist so what is there to be surprised over. Come back to me when you’re ready to get guns
React channels are bottom tier garbage. So whenever I see a POC react channel usually down the line they end up nodding with some shit that make the kkk blush.
You know how many of these chucklefucks big up Charleston fucking white? That mf has said shit even kanye does a double take on. Mf literally bragged aboutremoved women I saw a thumbnail for this family of brothers who were positively reacting to Jordan Peterson. “DR. JORDAN PETERSON GIVES GREAT ADVICE - BLACK FAMILY REACTS!”
Immediately put them on the block list. Wouldn’t surprise me if they were feds.
A bro of mine who is muslim loved dr Peterson. I showed him in a couple of seconds what Peterson really things of islam. He was shocked.
After the last 6 months I realize the site team was extremely correct to try to get rid of /c/the_dunk_tank
I really wish that leftist homies would stop pulling their daggers out on each online and go plug into any sort of real world organization. Something as small as dungeon and dragons group to a straight up leftist org. I hate the internet so much it’s really got people backwards. Go link up with real people leftist homie, link up and and be a part of something.
It’s feel this doubly for my fellow PoC-homies. Like I hate seeing PoC lefties doing weird online flame wars over nothing. Feels bad to see.
I love computers and computer nerd shit, but I still think the internet was a mistake.
Online sectarianism does nobody any favors, IMO. It’s unproductive at best and wrecker behavior at worst. Seeing online leftists argue over shit that happened before anyone was alive makes me nope out.
We’re in the “people are being disappeared by the government” stage of collapse and terminally online dorks are getting into flame wars over nothing. Like go punch some nazis or something instead of getting upset and arguing with the two Marxist-Leninist-Maoist-Hoxhaist-Dengist-Trotskeyite-Moo Dengist anarchists that exist in the United States.
I’ve generally stayed away from places where I’m going to see this much, but a few weeks ago I checked out an anarchist song that was posted here and decided to read the youtube comments… uh. Big mistake. But also it really was just some petty historical shit. Like why not look towards the past to learn from mistakes that were made rather than rehashing an argument that should have died out ages ago?
Holy shit I just tried to make a POC character in Oblivion Remastered and it looks like a cracker wearing blackface/yellowface/brownface
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It’s worse than before, what the fuck
Final update: we decided not to talk anymore, not even as friends, and I respect that.
She’s genuinely a good person, and even though things didn’t work out how I hoped, I’m grateful for the time we shared. It showed me my heart’s full capacity to love and proved that the kind of person I’m looking for in a relationship can exist, even if it’s not her.
This was different from anything I’ve felt before. Looking back, my past “love” I had other people was built on potential. I idealized people, loved who I wanted them to be, not who they really were. With her? No illusions. I loved her exactly as she was. That’s why I couldn’t settle for anything less than something real and lasting. Since that’s not mutual, walking away is the right call.
I hope our conversations brought her even a little joy or warmth. For me, the experience was priceless, and if it brightened her world in any way, that makes it even more meaningful.
No regrets. Just gratitude.
Also, still a thug!
In good news, my freeform dreadlocks just keep getting better and better. Nothing will teach you patience like growing freeforms, damn! Birthday’s also hella close.
I share a birthday with a very famous abolitionist, go figure. If that hint doesn’t help you, also consider the piano man.
Still being a thug
All my conchas came out flat not concha shaped at all, sad
