Just got back from a date and it confirmed for me that I cannot date. Certainly not now, maybe not ever again. I’m absolutely emotionally unavailable. I just want to be back with my ex. It’s too bad, this person was cute and really into me, we agreed to a 2nd date already because I hadn’t processed some of the feelings yet but it all came up on my way home. Going to have to figure out how to let them down kindly, promptly.

I guess almost half a year isn’t enough time to get over such a long term relationship with a longer term friend. I want to just give up on everything.