If you’re leaving what’s the issue exactly? There are countless people who are incompetent at being a proper boss or client. You can try to educate them. If they’re power tripping it’s best to find something new.

Regarding communication I think the most important skill is to actually say what you want to say. What your needs are. It sounds obvious and easy but once you consciously try it you’ll see that it takes a lot of practice.

The issue is that being indirect or expecting people to just get it just doesn’t work. There aren’t many people out there who are that sensitive and insightful, and they’ll just keep filling in the gaps with their own perspective again and again. Even when you are being direct they will, but at least it gives someone the opportunity to think about it and possibly adjust. Most people mean well.

I’m on matrix if you wanna chat

For me it didn’t get better, until it did. Patience is key.

The next generation has some poker scenes. There’s one episode where they are stuck in a simulation of a casino and can’t escape.

That I’m a gay n word. Like, I am neither so what’s up with that? He quickly biked off and I couldn’t get him to clarify.

Recognizing how my desires are never truly satisfied, and they cause me suffering. How they constantly shift and always want more. In other words I let go of my judgment and accept what I see. That doesn’t mean I don’t judge it at all or don’t change it. It just means I’m not attached to the desire to change things. It’s just a feeling, and I can act on it, but it’s a conscious decision rather than a habit.

Feels a bit like that one time a meat eater accused me of drinking soy milk, because apparently that’s causing deforestation. She seemed to forget that livestock eat a great amount of soy.

They always have their cherry picked excuses.

It’s two weeks or so for me. Currently going through that again. Actually in Juli it was all gone, and it was such a great relief. Then it came back with a vengeance. So I started boymoding and not using makeup. Big mistake. It’s better to just accept it and continue being yourself. What a nightmare!

Just like in the prophecy omg

I’ve been intensively studying A1 French in my current camp east of Antwerp, as I’ll be entering Wallonia next week and then France soon after that. I wonder what French people sound like when they have a stuffed nose.

It’s literally resting

Ah sorry I thought you meant hanging out with someone is work, rather than finding new people.

Just because you think you have a good grip on reality, doesn’t mean you do. Perhaps you don’t fully understand the situation. Maybe the trolley will come to a halt on its own unless you pull the lever. See realpolitik and ww1.

Scots pine

Sounds like you might have a case of giving too many fucks?

Ugh, had to wear male clothes because it was quite cold and I can’t afford anything. Went to lots of second hand stores and of the little that fit, I just felt it looked terrible. So, boymoding it was.

Over time it really eats away at me, and I just dissociate. And now I have to heal it again. I’ll be so happy once I had this all behind me. I at least managed to find something unisex and I tossed the male clothes.

Buy ya, after that ordeal, another. Got lasered, and it makes me look like I have facial hair tattooed on or something for about two weeks. Can’t wear makeup.

Can’t wait to exit terminator mode.

On the positive side, I’m currently staying in some family’s garden in Belgium and they’re super supportive. And last week I was in another Belgian family’s garden and they were, too. The hrt also remains solid every single day and I don’t understand how I ever survived without it.

Started on my journey to Turkey yesterday! Gonna get my hair fixed there.

Yea I’m from a rural village in the Netherlands. Tell me about it 😭

Okay one thing that bothers me so much is how hard it is to hook custom logic into the play button. Like all I want is my own script to run when someone presses play.

Sometimes this is important because you need to do some processing on the scene. Or perhaps the scene is a UI scene or something and you just want to start from another scene that shows the UI at work.

Like if you are developing a UI, you just wanna press play and it should just work and play. Either from the start scene or a test scene.

That’s the weird thing about unity. On one hand it allows you to do a lot of editor customization, and I haven’t worked on a project yet that doesn’t have some form of that. On the other hand, you can’t even hook into or replace the play button logic, which you could argue is the most basic action of all.

Another thing is that a client I am working for just switched to unity’s version management. And it just doesn’t work in a straight forward way. I still don’t have that working because I need to work and get stuff done.

Another thing is that their new animation system didn’t even allow me to query the duration of an animation, at least back when it came out and kept marketing with it. We actually ended up writing an entirely parallel system with meta data which was overly complicated for what we needed.

I could go on…

You sound like a modern shaman