Lol ugh. My baseline was grumpy and extremely sad 80% of my week. They started me in Lexapro last November… week of election. Terrible idea. I wasn’t sure if I was experiencing pill side effects or dealing with the election results. After two months it was clear it wasn’t helping so we upped my dosage right in time for the fires that burnt my city down. I didn’t think it was going to help at all but by mid January I was starting to experience little moments of joy. Initially, those bursts scared me. I was like what even is this emotion? My doctor was like, its normal as you adjust. It only lasted about two weeks. Now I am emotionally leveled out but back to the baseline of grump, but at least I’m not disabling levels sad. 😅

At this point it seems like the game plan for the ultra wealthy is to make the earth uninhabitable for everyone but them.

For a bit I thought my new prescription of lexapro was going to carry me through this year but the week of feeling joyful has leveled out and I am just as grumpy and annoyed as before. Just less sad. I want the joy part, though.

Nice. Thank you.

Yea same

It’s a fork of Misskey, I believe. And I think the dev is Korean? It’s a nicely laid out microblogging platform that runs on activitypub. Makes cute little noises. Has all kinds of lists to organize things. I love it.

https://cherrypick.fediverse.observer/list https://chai.aozora.uk <---- an example https://github.com/noridev/azpick

Oh that’s good advice and really too bad to hear about your instance. There’s not that many CherryPick out there. So neat to meet another user. We gotta figure out how to get our little hub hosted out of the US.

Excellent. Thanks for the helpful input.

A new thought. I keep reading about dictatorships and fascism and now my anti-depressants are doing some heavy lifting. Reading about Nicaragua, reading about Germany, and now just did a quick peruse of Belarus. And then I look at the US and I’m like… maybe I should read books about nations that recovered from fascism…

Gentle hugs

Oh yea - defo didn’t use my real identity. It’s an open group style participation. It was helpful for what it was.

Aww. Maybe it’s not “what’s wrong with you” and more what do you need to make coping in this world more manageable? That’s what it was for me, in a nutshell. Always happy to chat so you can message me anytime.

Just learned about Threema. No one uses it, though. But I downloaded it and paid the $7 anyway.

Have you heard of 7 cups? It’s a lovely community for folks working on their mental health. I have two therapists and started medication now and it’s getting my mental state in line, finally. But before all of that I found 7 cups helpful. (https://www.7cups.com)

I keep saying if we can’t have anything this fucking year… at least we can have the halftime show.

I don’t think I would call interesting. I would call it depressing now.

As someone who grew up in Missouri and has had countless guns pulled on me for defending my property, I guess I would have still gotten out and dealt with the situation there. No sense in being scared and abused. At least that’s kind of how I feel about life on this planet. Maybe just get out of Texas? Or get a gun. I don’t really have any helpful suggestions I guess. I am sorry that you had to deal with that though. That’s fucked up.

Exactly. And even if there isn’t an RSS available some of the paid RSS servers will webscrape for you. I have been building my own webscraping code but it works. I just decided I need to put some distance between myself and the abusive way we are presented news these days.

Pick and choose your battles, love. This is a long road. You don’t have to physically be present for every battle.

You did great. Your intention was in the right place.