just another Redditrefugee who has been thinking too much about the internet lately.

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Cake day: June 12th, 2023

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  • Smoking. Accidentally through vaping? Switched to vaping never intending to quit, but ran into issues with my vape, couldn’t use it, and one day I just sort of realized I was fine.

    I had one of those early Kangertech models and i kept having issues with coils (even new ones) and then later with the battery. I guess I could have gone to the disposable kind but yeah. It just sort of happened.

    I remember the fear i used to get thinking a certain cig was my last one ever. I think taking that out of the equation is critical. Either by lowering your dose or just cutting back in number, working down slowly, and keeping the process open ended is best.







  • These days I’m more of a boomer shooter dude, but the trailer hooked me and I regret nothing. Haven’t tried the newest Postal yet. Played postal 2 back in the day. blood west is likely next up for me.

    Devs like Hyperstrange and New Blood are killing it these days, in a time when the big devs are laying off entire teams. It’s amazing what happens when you have smaller devs who are focused on the games and not chasing number-go-up.

    As New Blood says, “We love you. We hate money.”







  • It makes even less sense considering the pivot to an “original franchise.” If they’re cynically trying to print money, why not cash in on something with an established active fanbase? Seems like less of a risk.

    I’d have bought a new Deus Ex game, regardless if it got badly reviewed. Not really interested in whatever they’re cooking up now. I’m sure most of us fans probably feel the same way.


  • As many have said there is no ethical consumption under capitalism, and you can’t know everything about everyone, so no matter what you’re going to end up supporting something unethical at some point.

    That being said, all I can do is act on the information I have, and when I learn about some situation like this, I don’t have an easy answer or decision flow chart. But I do ask myself two questions.

    How much will my support enable more of the behaviour I find abhorrent? And how much will the knowledge ruin my appreciation of the thing?

    I cannot read Ender’s Game even though I always meant to since I found out about Orson Scott Card’s politics about ten years back. And while there’s (somehow) way, way worse people out there the knowledge, especially the holocaust denial, just ruins any enjoyment I could get from the books or movies, regardless of any separate-art-from-artist arguments.

    But I am a huge Lovecraft fan, and he was also just the worst. But the guy’s dead, it doesn’t matter if I buy his books or not. And even then despite his popularity across Geekdom he’s a relatively niche author. His views aren’t going to reach a lot of people.

    I think this works out differently if the creator is someone current and powerful or influential. If we can blunt the impact of a popular creator spreading toxic views that prevents a lot more bad than than the same frome someone dead or niche. Even if that’s only lack of support, that’s still more.

    I guess what I’m saying it is has less to do with the details of the bad views or actions, and more about much my support helps enable those. The less I contribute by watching or buying or clicking, the less I’m concerned about it. Unless it just personally bothers me.

    I don’t know if that’s the right answer but it’s the one I’ve got right now


  • It’s not my primary device but it fills a couple niches really well. And travel device isn’t even the most important, though obviously I love it for that.

    Sometimes I game with it over my PC when I want to be outside in the summer.

    But most of the time I end using it with the tv. I have the dock and it’s become more like a Nintendo switch than a Sega game gear. My friends and blasted through Streets of Rage 4 in an afternoon for example. And im in a couple discord movie servers and when I’m watching I just switch to desktop mode and full screen it.

    So yeah I’m not using it the way I thought, but it gets used couple times a week minimum, a lot more if I have along bus or train ride.



  • Here’s the closest I’ve got.

    Priest - History In Black

    Priest is an electronic music project originally formed by ex-members of the hugely popular band Ghost. I’d call this Darkwave, but the label doesn’t matter, it’s depeche mode-y and don’t let the gimp mask put you off, I believe the song is very sincere.

    I can't stop, it's too late, it pours out, it's my fate
    My legacy in black
    Looking in to my eyes, see the things i despise
    My soul is tainted black
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I never want it back, my history in black
    
    Silent screams longing voice, violent dreams, ringing noise
    My memory is black
    It's not a mask, it's my skin
    Please don't ask where i've been
    My heart is painted black
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I'm never want it back, my history in black
    
    I escaped from the cage inside
    
    I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
    I'm free of all the lunacy
    I never want it back, my history in black
    My history in black
    

  • It’s a song that speaks to your flavour of depression. Makes you feel like someone feels the exact same way you do. That in turn makes you feel sane. Like you’re heard. Even understood.

    Over time, songs (or movies or other things) can become a ritual - you feel awful, listen to the song, eventually you come out the other side as the depressive episode fades. Then the next time it happens you associate the song with your recovery. So over time it becomes What You Do when you Feel That Way.