• just_kitten@aussie.zone
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    19 days ago

    Really over the anxiety/depression :/ just deep unease all of today and now feeling really glum and dull about everything. I even walked to work in the sun this am, and work was productive, but I still felt detached and fuzzy. Cough still rattling around too. I don’t think taking a sick day is going to help as I’ll just be unsettled all day.

    No suitable rentals have popped up so far on my radar. Registered interest in a couple but no updates yet.

    Ugh. I managed to buy some veg on the way home, I’ll force myself to make a pasta dish and eat it and crawl into bed to dissociate on the phone for the rest of the evening. Tomorrow is a new day…

    E: soxcat is still here as her human won’t be back til Monday. It’s saying something that I can’t even feel that happy around her, but she’s been snuggling up against me lots. And left a whisker on tgr couch for me - that’s good luck isn’t it?

    lomg kitty whisker

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      19 days ago

      Anxiety is horrible, soul destroying and crippling. But it does usually comes in waves, admittedly a wave can last a long time. Just hold on for a break in the surf where you will have a respite from the anxiety.

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        19 days ago

        Thanks man. Yeah, I know in my mind that it’ll pass, even if it’s a month away, but man this is such shitty timing. Sucks being physically unwell too. I’m going to reframe my early bedtime as looking after myself and creating a sense of safety so I don’t feel like I’m spiraling. I got this. One day at a time.

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      19 days ago

      That is one IMPRESSIVE whisker. According to Doreen Tovey (yes I’ve been re-reading Cats in May and Cats in the Belfry), chewing off a whisker or two is a love offering. You were there for her when she was suffering, so now she’s there for you. Who says cats can’t do empathy?