I know this sub isn’t very active, but I don’t have accounts anywhere else, so here goes . . .

I don’t want to get into details right now, but my wife has made me promise to divorce her if I ever drink again . . . my heart is broken for the pain I have caused her to get us to this point.

I feel so stupid that this isn’t the first time I’ve been here, either. I feel so stupid saying “this time it’s for real,” because we all know what to expect when an alcoholic says that :(

In terms of quantity, I’ve actually been drinking much less the past few years, but I think the infrequency might even be making my “mistakes” even worse when they happen :( So I don’t have the excuse of infrequency. I can truly never drink again, and I’m so afraid I’m going to mess it up. I have CPTSD with terrible emotional flashbacks, and I’m afraid I’ll lose control during one of them and ruin my marriage once and for all :(

So this is me, I’m here to join the stopdrinking community. Any encouragement, stories or advice you can give would be most welcome. Thank you.

Edit: Wow, thank you for the outpouring of support! I can’t reply to all of your comments, but know that I’ve read and treasure them!

  • grrgyle@slrpnk.netEnglish
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    1 month ago

    Hey welcome, and congrats on becoming an ex-drinker, try not to let it get to your head hehe. You’re lucky to have someone pulling for you, to help keep you from messing up. You’ll never find a better friend and ally than the one who will call you on your shit like that.

    Still, I know guys that got that ultimatum and didn’t take it to heart. They wasted it, and now they’re drinking alone. Real sad, but what can you do? Try to learn from it, I guess. Maybe thinking about those guys will keep you from joining their ranks. I hope so.

    Feel free to DM me if you ever just want to chat one on one about whatever. :)