basically i never managed to qualify for actual disability payments (in my country it is extremely difficult if you’re a young person), but I did qualify for a bridge payment while my application was pending. they kicked me off that because I went to see my gfs family in the US and i guess they just make you reapply if you miss a couple of payments, i was never informed of that. they make you go in person to the post office to get paid as a kind of capitalist humiliation ritual so i was unable to get them. i figured then that i would be denied reapplication because my gf had been sending me money during that time (all welfare is aggressively means tested and you’re not allowed take a holiday basically). since I’ve been able to survive without the bridge payment for the last few months they will just use that as an excuse to not give me disability anyway so i just gave up.