I don’t know what to write in these posts, anymore. I feel stupid. Everything is just getting overwhelming and idfk. Everyone thinks I’m some fucking drug fiend even though I can’t even remember the last time I bought even like $20 of dope—and then gleefully send hundreds to a fucking clown who blows all of it literally on fucking fetty.

I just want to be comfortable, and enjoy life in spite of everything. That’s why I’m so terrible with money and give that fucking impression. It makes it worse when I do actually put my nose to it and get absolute crickets over and over again.

I’m sorry for freaking out like this. Idk.

I feel stupid. I used to have friends on Twitter, etc., who helped me out, and now it’s just this one place.