I don’t know what to write in these posts, anymore. I feel stupid. Everything is just getting overwhelming and idfk. Everyone thinks I’m some fucking drug fiend even though I can’t even remember the last time I bought even like $20 of dope—and then gleefully send hundreds to a fucking clown who blows all of it literally on fucking fetty.
I just want to be comfortable, and enjoy life in spite of everything. That’s why I’m so terrible with money and give that fucking impression. It makes it worse when I do actually put my nose to it and get absolute crickets over and over again.
I’m sorry for freaking out like this. Idk.
I feel stupid. I used to have friends on Twitter, etc., who helped me out, and now it’s just this one place.
I’m so glad you’re out of jail! I was concerned that it would have really bad and lasting direct effects on you.
You’ve beaten a lot of expectations; personally, I find your progress encouragingly surprising. Just because there’s a long way to go doesn’t mean you haven’t been doing right.